11.28.2005
Random Question #6
So why didnt anyone tell me that Jamie Foxx is featured with Adina Howard on the T-Shirt and Panties song? I have iTunes to thank for the discovery.
11.21.2005
slightly miffed
So, dinner at Sarah's tonight was absolutely fabulous: macaroni and cheese, meatloaf, and greenbeans. I was enjoying the wine and the food and the chat until my friends essentially decided that I was incapable of getting our friend Kristin to the airport on time tomorrow. You should have seen it, people shaking their heads, saying "you know how you are." And I really wanted to say "take your own self to the airport since I'm so unpredictable." But I didnt. And because I didnt, I'm trying not to be so pissed about it.
Doesnt help me pack any faster.
Doesnt help me pack any faster.
11.18.2005
A few thoughts to report
Sometimes I wish I was able to meet people on the facebook before I met them in person. Prime example, a heiffa that me and some of my friends dont especially care for has a really nice facebook page. A little on the braggy side, but even still, she has diverse interests, were about the same age, and just overall, its a pretty nice page. She seems like a nice girl. Seems. Unfortunate for me (and my growing liking of her facebook page), I have already met her. And I dont really care for her. Which leaves me with a mild dissonace residue. Only a little bit though because I have met her already, which kinda cancels out me thinking her page is really nice.
Oh well.
Additionally, I have fallen in love with Star Wars. I am not sure why I had never gotten into it. Maybe because in my book it was more like Star Trek than Harry Potter (even with that whole thing with the force being innate). Anyway, I saw the third one with William, and then I rented the first one - well, first episode. And then ChrisB let me borrow the second one, and I am officially hooked. Although I need to see them all again becuase I know there is some stuff I missed. Very excited to see how the saga ends :)
I'm leaving now because its time to depart. Me, Officemate, and Whit are driving down to Jacksonville for SSSP. Steve and Keen, Lenny, ChrisB and his Laura, are all going down too. I think were going out tonight. Should be fun. Be back late tomorrow.
xoxox
Oh well.
Additionally, I have fallen in love with Star Wars. I am not sure why I had never gotten into it. Maybe because in my book it was more like Star Trek than Harry Potter (even with that whole thing with the force being innate). Anyway, I saw the third one with William, and then I rented the first one - well, first episode. And then ChrisB let me borrow the second one, and I am officially hooked. Although I need to see them all again becuase I know there is some stuff I missed. Very excited to see how the saga ends :)
I'm leaving now because its time to depart. Me, Officemate, and Whit are driving down to Jacksonville for SSSP. Steve and Keen, Lenny, ChrisB and his Laura, are all going down too. I think were going out tonight. Should be fun. Be back late tomorrow.
xoxox
11.15.2005
Breaking Up is Hard to Do #11
So, I guess since I have been talking about how breakups are hard (this one is particularly difficult) that its time to put up or shut up.
Its time to act like we are broken up.
Because we are. I just had the beginnings (and possibly the end) of an interesting chat with William that could easily be incapsulated by a couple of lines of text
(it went something like this)
W: What are we doing?
P: Idunno.
(a few statements later...)
W: If we are broken up, and we know we arent supposed to be together, and arent trying to be together, are we going through the motions of being together?
P: Because we like being together.
And that was it for me. That is an answer that I have not really been looking for, but have been kinda toying with since yesterday when I dropped William off in Atlanta. After a lovely weekend together (one 1 fight) and a cute "couple's evening" (even though we arent a couple) and a rather uneventful but meaningful goodbye, I was left thinking that "Oh god, I love him" and of course "I'm really going to miss him." All normal responses to your boyfriend leaving.
But, William isnt my boyfriend. I know.
Which puts me here tonight. In the midst of gushing about the fabulous weekend I had (and keeping the part about fabulous sex to myself), and talking about our ongoing fight about him smoking in my car, and how we can participate in couple's functions even though we arent because thats how we roll... I find myself [finally] on the page that William is on.
What is the point.
I feel like it is okay to want to be together and enjoy being together, even if you know being together is wrong. But I also hear him when he says that he doesnt feel like he can give me what I need when I am going to want/need it. You dont ignore someone when they are expressing themself like that. I have to listen to him when he says that he doesnt see where "this" is going, what the expected outcomes are, and that he predicts that in the end, someone will be dissapointed. If I were a betting woman, I would put my money on me.
Is this the method of choice for getting over an ex? Do I even want to get over him? And what does my apparent inability (unwillingness) to sit and process the situation say about how I feel about it. Am I willing to confront it? I think I might be. I love William. I feel like I need to keep saying it aloud because that emotion is real. It is so real for me that it is ingrained in the essence of who I am. Knowing William has made me a better person and [sadly] I like being his girlfriend. Definitely not all peachy keen all the time, but for the most part, the good times are fabulous, and the bad times can be used as stepping stones...
I'm scared. I find myself in a neighboring place of where I was almost a year ago, the last time we broke up. I wasnt prepared to not be his girlfriend. I wasnt prepared to love someone else. And especially the way that I love him.
I DONT KNOW WHAT I AM GOING TO DO.
thinking obsessively about it (for now)...
xoxox
Its time to act like we are broken up.
Because we are. I just had the beginnings (and possibly the end) of an interesting chat with William that could easily be incapsulated by a couple of lines of text
(it went something like this)
W: What are we doing?
P: Idunno.
(a few statements later...)
W: If we are broken up, and we know we arent supposed to be together, and arent trying to be together, are we going through the motions of being together?
P: Because we like being together.
And that was it for me. That is an answer that I have not really been looking for, but have been kinda toying with since yesterday when I dropped William off in Atlanta. After a lovely weekend together (one 1 fight) and a cute "couple's evening" (even though we arent a couple) and a rather uneventful but meaningful goodbye, I was left thinking that "Oh god, I love him" and of course "I'm really going to miss him." All normal responses to your boyfriend leaving.
But, William isnt my boyfriend. I know.
Which puts me here tonight. In the midst of gushing about the fabulous weekend I had (and keeping the part about fabulous sex to myself), and talking about our ongoing fight about him smoking in my car, and how we can participate in couple's functions even though we arent because thats how we roll... I find myself [finally] on the page that William is on.
What is the point.
I feel like it is okay to want to be together and enjoy being together, even if you know being together is wrong. But I also hear him when he says that he doesnt feel like he can give me what I need when I am going to want/need it. You dont ignore someone when they are expressing themself like that. I have to listen to him when he says that he doesnt see where "this" is going, what the expected outcomes are, and that he predicts that in the end, someone will be dissapointed. If I were a betting woman, I would put my money on me.
Is this the method of choice for getting over an ex? Do I even want to get over him? And what does my apparent inability (unwillingness) to sit and process the situation say about how I feel about it. Am I willing to confront it? I think I might be. I love William. I feel like I need to keep saying it aloud because that emotion is real. It is so real for me that it is ingrained in the essence of who I am. Knowing William has made me a better person and [sadly] I like being his girlfriend. Definitely not all peachy keen all the time, but for the most part, the good times are fabulous, and the bad times can be used as stepping stones...
I'm scared. I find myself in a neighboring place of where I was almost a year ago, the last time we broke up. I wasnt prepared to not be his girlfriend. I wasnt prepared to love someone else. And especially the way that I love him.
I DONT KNOW WHAT I AM GOING TO DO.
thinking obsessively about it (for now)...
xoxox
11.09.2005
Random Question #4
I know that I complain about the weather about as much as the average person. Well, actually, probably a little more than the average person...I dont like it hot, or cold. Double the complaints. But anyway, on to the question.
Why is it 80 degrees outside in Athens, Georgia?
If it were at home, that would be just fine. I expect it to be hot in SOUTH FLORIDA. But Georiga? After the (what turned out to be a) tease weather we had been having, its 80 degrees. And to add insult to injury, its supposed to maybe rain tomorrow. RAIN!
I'm so disgusted.
Why is it 80 degrees outside in Athens, Georgia?
If it were at home, that would be just fine. I expect it to be hot in SOUTH FLORIDA. But Georiga? After the (what turned out to be a) tease weather we had been having, its 80 degrees. And to add insult to injury, its supposed to maybe rain tomorrow. RAIN!
I'm so disgusted.
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