I am supposed to be starting my day.
And I was en route to the shower when I got sideswiped by a friend of mine that told he he was going to stop drinking. Now, if you knew him, this is just miraculous in itself. A former bartender, he is the one who told me what I know about the finer alchols in life. Although he lost some points with me when he started spouting off the finer qualities of box wine, he was still THE drinker to me. And now hes quitting. And I told him, (because when he drinks, he drinks too much) that I can only see positives from that. And then I asked him why. Do you know what he said? God. He is doing it because he is ridding himself of the things that God frowns upon. Sex is next on the list.
I cant get mad at that.
I CAN be surprised as hell.
And although I dont know exactly what Im surprised about, I'll get back to you on that one. It will come to me once Ive had some time to process that.
On to the other thing that is keeping me out of the shower today:
So, I have another friend (I use the term loosely here- maybe aquaintence is better) that is essentially accustomed to getting what woman he wants. And for the last week, I was the target. I blame a little number I wore to the GAPS welcome back party that had by boobs out for the drama, and a little alcohol, because that night he was like "waht u doin" and at this point it was like 2 or 3 in the morning. I was surprised, but I answered the text. He wanted to come by and I was trying to sleep. He was trying to eat me out and I was uninterested. So, that night I told William about it. And all of the other times that this "friend" wasnt taking no for an answer. He even came over one night and tried to put the moves on me, and I sent him away- well, I moved to the loveseat leaving him on the couch with a visibly hard penis. Not my problem. I hadnt changed my story. Sometimes I would ask some questions just to see where his head is, but I generally hadnt changed my story.
To make a long story short, William took matters into his own hands yesterday during my meeting montage, basically giving him a piece of his mind.
I was surprised at that too.
I kept thinking that maybe because it was out of character, or Idunno. I came up with the fact that I was kinda happy he stepped in. I dont forsee having this kind of problem with the "friend anymore" but Idunno. He is persistent.
I mostly felt relieved. William said he was annoyed.
I love him.
Okay, so now Im going to shower. The day has started and we have errands to run. Hope all is well with you.
xoxox
8.16.2005
LOL
I didnt realize that the last post was as lenghty as it is. My sincerest apologies. ~ Management
xoxox
xoxox
Some random thoughts for you
Hi! Back from Alabama (I'll dish on that in a separate post), and basically trying to coax my inner academic to come out of hiding. Dont ask me why she's playin herself like that- lol.
But anyway, just a few random thoughts:
SO I THINK LIKE FIFTY PERCENT (maybe a slight overexageration) of my facebook friends list updated their profiles on the 15th. Now, it was random as hell that I was even on the facebook, let alone I sorted my friends' list so that I could see only those who recently updated. I couldnt believe I had to scroll! And normally, its within a few day period...most of these were done yesterday! Makes me feel like I should have updated my profile! I could I guess...but I could not. Something about updating your profile all the time...maybe it just means youre flexible. Well, I guess it depends on what kinds of updates. If youre adding quotes then its cool, keeps it fresh. But if your relationship status (or one better- your pic) keeps changing, Imma need you to have something else a little more constructive to do.
Yes, this is coming from the girl who at 2 something in the morning is writing in her blog. LOL.
Moving on.
SO HOW MANY OF YOU have been sleeping on Showtime? Yeah, I know they have some hits here and there (a la SoulFood) but when is the last time you really stopped to look at Showtime. Wait, lemme back up. When is the last time I looked at anything cable-tv related? Its been like a month...perhaps a little more than a month. The cable guy (lol) came today to get me all hooked up. I know, I know. I hate Charter. I hate giving them my money every month because I know they have a monopoly on Athens. I even tried to circumvent them by getting satellite. Evidently, not only does my lovely half of a duplex sound like its in the woods (complete with cricket sounds and all), it really kinda is...I want you to know that I dont get anything remotely associated with wireless in my apt. Except for surprisingly consistent cell phone reception.
I digress. Back to Showtime.
So, because of William (and thanks to On Demand - the BEST part about having digital cable..I will admit that) I tuned into one of their newest shows: Weeds. Now I knew it was a suburban something or another, and I took the bait from the commercials, but I wasnt ready for how funny it was! It was like a mix of suburban stereotypes based in truths, and pure comedy all mixed up into an episode. For the first time in my life, I am so glad to be a Showtime subscriber.
And not only do they have that show, but they have the Barbershop series, and the Fat Actress series Ive been dying to get a glimpse of. If you had told me 2 weeks ago I would be this excited about ANYTHING on Showtime, I would have called you a liar.
I am absolutely thrilled.
LAST WEEK, WILLIAM AND I WENT TO SEE JOHN LEGEND. Well, Common and DeLaSoul were there too, but anyone who knows me knows that I learned something about those other two groups and was primarly there to see John. And was he fabulous! I wasnt ready for him live. Yes, the words were the same, but the passion, and the soul, and the energy was just amazing! I wasnt ready. But I hoped that I would get my money's worth (not that I doubted I would). And it was even more remarkable and memorable being able to see it with William. We kinda discovered JL together, so it was fitting that we experienced him live together as well.
In typical (or what seems to be becomming typical) Patti-William fashion, we were so fighting that day, but we did a little New Orleans sight seeing, he let me take a few pics (always makes me super happy...gotta have the memories) and then we went to the concert. I didnt know prior to the day of that it was standing room only. Can you imagine? WE stood at the House of Blues for practically 4 hours. It wasnt until we got back to the car, and were driving back to Mobile that we realized just how tired we were. You know how it is...you gotta wave your arm when they say wave your arm, jump when they say jump, and then there are those times that the music gets the better of you and you find yourself grinding on your boyfriend, or swaying with the crowd, shouting out your favorite line in the song, and basically Getting your money's worth.
But like I said: AMAZING.
SO, I FIND MYSELF IN EVERYDAY SITUATIONS that make me think of my boyfriend. Probably a little caught off guard, huh. Trying to figure out where Im going with this one, right? Well stop it. Just keep reading silly! Like I said, I find myself in situations that remind me of my sweetie. And I know its partially my fault. Or maybe this is how most normal relationships work. He'll suggest a show, a movie, a CD, and I'll watch, rent, or purchase (download) snippets of it per his suggestion. And not only does he know me pretty well, and can usually acurately predict what I'm bound to like or tolerate, these things make me think of him. Its like having pieces of him here with me, when he isnt. Strange I know. But its how I feel. And on the flip side, if its something we both wanna do/see/hear, we try and wait and do it together. Then we can chat about it. Like he suggested Weeds, and some other movie im supposed to watch on Starz on Demand (maybe tomorrow morning), and Im going to give them a chance- because he suggested it.
I love him so much.
I miss him terribly.
And Im open to him. You have to be to love him. He has to be to love me. Cause there are some thinks implicit to who we are that are indellible. Theyre not up for negotiation.
I WAS WATCHING GIRLFRIENDS this evening and it was the episode where William (hahah) and Yvonne were supposed to get married. For those of you who havent seen it, she ended up calling off the wedding becasue she said she didnt like who she was with him. It wasnt that the relationship was bad (or it was anything he did) but rather, the problem was with her and what she allowed to transpire (her quitting the force, her never correcting him for mis-pronouncing her name, etc), and that totally hit home with me today. I used to apologize for my quirks. Cause Im quite a character...to know me is to love me (or at least tolerate me) and I know now that I cant apologize for me. Somethings I do/thinkabout/say are just because theyre on my mind. I ask a question, I want an answer, and not becasue I havent thought about it, but because I needed an answer (I know, tangent). But anyway, I like who I am with William, because I feel like I can be me, and at the end of the day (I've tested the theory...we've had some rough days) I know he may be annoyed, but he essentially loves me no less.
If you dont know what that feels like. What a relief it is. You should add that to the list of things to experience.
MY FRIEND MERCY (and I think this month I am using that term loosely in regards to her) is not returning my phone calls. I cant think of anything I did to her this time- and Im usually good at teasing apart what I did that was shiesty to warrant non-returned calls. Ever since before the move, I remember asking her to sit in my apartment in the evnet the furniture came, and she was telling me she planned to read Harry Potter the whole time. And I got peeved. I was like "damn, you cant do me one favor...bring the damn book with you." I know, right? Coming from me. The resident Harry Potter fanatic. I was just banking on she said she would help (even had the nerve to say I'll help you with whatever) and she hasnt returned a call since. I think I talked to her on the 14th of July. Its now the 14th of August. I went by her job once, and she wasnt there (plus, they didnt have anything I wanted) and I was two seconds away from calling her house and speaking with her parents, but I decided no. If she wanted to talk to me, she would have called by now, fussing at me for not seeing her and us not hanging out. William thought she didnt come around during the move cause he was here...but he has been not in Athens since the move. I decided yesterday to stop calling because it just makes me feel sad. When she wants to chat, she can contact me. I hope that she is okay though. I would hate for something to be dreadully wrong, and here I am thinking malice. Wait, no malice. Just a little sad. And soon to be a little preoccupied to dwell on it.
You know, with School and Psi Chi, and research, and Girl Scouts, and (of course) William. :)
AND FINALLY, I love Glamour. I really do. Not like I love Real Simple, but close. For different reasons. Everyone knows Im taking about magazines, right? I just renewed my RS subscription through like the next 2 years and I need to get a glamour subscription..Im just throwing my money away everymonth, when it could be ocming to me early.
Okay, Ive bent your ear enough for now. This was fun, we'll have to do this again really soon.
xoxox
But anyway, just a few random thoughts:
SO I THINK LIKE FIFTY PERCENT (maybe a slight overexageration) of my facebook friends list updated their profiles on the 15th. Now, it was random as hell that I was even on the facebook, let alone I sorted my friends' list so that I could see only those who recently updated. I couldnt believe I had to scroll! And normally, its within a few day period...most of these were done yesterday! Makes me feel like I should have updated my profile! I could I guess...but I could not. Something about updating your profile all the time...maybe it just means youre flexible. Well, I guess it depends on what kinds of updates. If youre adding quotes then its cool, keeps it fresh. But if your relationship status (or one better- your pic) keeps changing, Imma need you to have something else a little more constructive to do.
Yes, this is coming from the girl who at 2 something in the morning is writing in her blog. LOL.
Moving on.
SO HOW MANY OF YOU have been sleeping on Showtime? Yeah, I know they have some hits here and there (a la SoulFood) but when is the last time you really stopped to look at Showtime. Wait, lemme back up. When is the last time I looked at anything cable-tv related? Its been like a month...perhaps a little more than a month. The cable guy (lol) came today to get me all hooked up. I know, I know. I hate Charter. I hate giving them my money every month because I know they have a monopoly on Athens. I even tried to circumvent them by getting satellite. Evidently, not only does my lovely half of a duplex sound like its in the woods (complete with cricket sounds and all), it really kinda is...I want you to know that I dont get anything remotely associated with wireless in my apt. Except for surprisingly consistent cell phone reception.
I digress. Back to Showtime.
So, because of William (and thanks to On Demand - the BEST part about having digital cable..I will admit that) I tuned into one of their newest shows: Weeds. Now I knew it was a suburban something or another, and I took the bait from the commercials, but I wasnt ready for how funny it was! It was like a mix of suburban stereotypes based in truths, and pure comedy all mixed up into an episode. For the first time in my life, I am so glad to be a Showtime subscriber.
And not only do they have that show, but they have the Barbershop series, and the Fat Actress series Ive been dying to get a glimpse of. If you had told me 2 weeks ago I would be this excited about ANYTHING on Showtime, I would have called you a liar.
I am absolutely thrilled.
LAST WEEK, WILLIAM AND I WENT TO SEE JOHN LEGEND. Well, Common and DeLaSoul were there too, but anyone who knows me knows that I learned something about those other two groups and was primarly there to see John. And was he fabulous! I wasnt ready for him live. Yes, the words were the same, but the passion, and the soul, and the energy was just amazing! I wasnt ready. But I hoped that I would get my money's worth (not that I doubted I would). And it was even more remarkable and memorable being able to see it with William. We kinda discovered JL together, so it was fitting that we experienced him live together as well.
In typical (or what seems to be becomming typical) Patti-William fashion, we were so fighting that day, but we did a little New Orleans sight seeing, he let me take a few pics (always makes me super happy...gotta have the memories) and then we went to the concert. I didnt know prior to the day of that it was standing room only. Can you imagine? WE stood at the House of Blues for practically 4 hours. It wasnt until we got back to the car, and were driving back to Mobile that we realized just how tired we were. You know how it is...you gotta wave your arm when they say wave your arm, jump when they say jump, and then there are those times that the music gets the better of you and you find yourself grinding on your boyfriend, or swaying with the crowd, shouting out your favorite line in the song, and basically Getting your money's worth.
But like I said: AMAZING.
SO, I FIND MYSELF IN EVERYDAY SITUATIONS that make me think of my boyfriend. Probably a little caught off guard, huh. Trying to figure out where Im going with this one, right? Well stop it. Just keep reading silly! Like I said, I find myself in situations that remind me of my sweetie. And I know its partially my fault. Or maybe this is how most normal relationships work. He'll suggest a show, a movie, a CD, and I'll watch, rent, or purchase (download) snippets of it per his suggestion. And not only does he know me pretty well, and can usually acurately predict what I'm bound to like or tolerate, these things make me think of him. Its like having pieces of him here with me, when he isnt. Strange I know. But its how I feel. And on the flip side, if its something we both wanna do/see/hear, we try and wait and do it together. Then we can chat about it. Like he suggested Weeds, and some other movie im supposed to watch on Starz on Demand (maybe tomorrow morning), and Im going to give them a chance- because he suggested it.
I love him so much.
I miss him terribly.
And Im open to him. You have to be to love him. He has to be to love me. Cause there are some thinks implicit to who we are that are indellible. Theyre not up for negotiation.
I WAS WATCHING GIRLFRIENDS this evening and it was the episode where William (hahah) and Yvonne were supposed to get married. For those of you who havent seen it, she ended up calling off the wedding becasue she said she didnt like who she was with him. It wasnt that the relationship was bad (or it was anything he did) but rather, the problem was with her and what she allowed to transpire (her quitting the force, her never correcting him for mis-pronouncing her name, etc), and that totally hit home with me today. I used to apologize for my quirks. Cause Im quite a character...to know me is to love me (or at least tolerate me) and I know now that I cant apologize for me. Somethings I do/thinkabout/say are just because theyre on my mind. I ask a question, I want an answer, and not becasue I havent thought about it, but because I needed an answer (I know, tangent). But anyway, I like who I am with William, because I feel like I can be me, and at the end of the day (I've tested the theory...we've had some rough days) I know he may be annoyed, but he essentially loves me no less.
If you dont know what that feels like. What a relief it is. You should add that to the list of things to experience.
MY FRIEND MERCY (and I think this month I am using that term loosely in regards to her) is not returning my phone calls. I cant think of anything I did to her this time- and Im usually good at teasing apart what I did that was shiesty to warrant non-returned calls. Ever since before the move, I remember asking her to sit in my apartment in the evnet the furniture came, and she was telling me she planned to read Harry Potter the whole time. And I got peeved. I was like "damn, you cant do me one favor...bring the damn book with you." I know, right? Coming from me. The resident Harry Potter fanatic. I was just banking on she said she would help (even had the nerve to say I'll help you with whatever) and she hasnt returned a call since. I think I talked to her on the 14th of July. Its now the 14th of August. I went by her job once, and she wasnt there (plus, they didnt have anything I wanted) and I was two seconds away from calling her house and speaking with her parents, but I decided no. If she wanted to talk to me, she would have called by now, fussing at me for not seeing her and us not hanging out. William thought she didnt come around during the move cause he was here...but he has been not in Athens since the move. I decided yesterday to stop calling because it just makes me feel sad. When she wants to chat, she can contact me. I hope that she is okay though. I would hate for something to be dreadully wrong, and here I am thinking malice. Wait, no malice. Just a little sad. And soon to be a little preoccupied to dwell on it.
You know, with School and Psi Chi, and research, and Girl Scouts, and (of course) William. :)
AND FINALLY, I love Glamour. I really do. Not like I love Real Simple, but close. For different reasons. Everyone knows Im taking about magazines, right? I just renewed my RS subscription through like the next 2 years and I need to get a glamour subscription..Im just throwing my money away everymonth, when it could be ocming to me early.
Okay, Ive bent your ear enough for now. This was fun, we'll have to do this again really soon.
xoxox
8.03.2005
Notification, not negotiation
I almost forgot to mention this! That in itself must be a sign, but last week I broke it off with Him. It had already ended for me, and I was bold enough to indicate on my facebook page that I was in a relationship with someone else (William). I still have no idea if in his mind everything was copasetic (sp?). When I texted him (yes, I sent a text message...no need to run up my daytime minutes or anything), he initally was like "okay" and I thought i had got off easy. Then he wanted to chat about it and got kinda miffed that I didnt. We had gone through the long drawn out dialogue before, and generally that was how he got me to change my mind. I can honestly say that the one time I felt forced to break up with him was the first time I did it. I didnt want to, and was hurt. All these other times (too many to count) I was generally just dissatisfied. This time, I was bored, tired of the excuses and the empty promises of coming to Athens. The kisses didnt mean anything, and I was uninterested in having sex with him. It was over, emotionally and physically for me months ago.
Im not really sure those pieces ever came back.
So I calmly and politely let him know that I no longer wanted to be together and that my life was going on. Notification not negotiation.
xoxox
Im not really sure those pieces ever came back.
So I calmly and politely let him know that I no longer wanted to be together and that my life was going on. Notification not negotiation.
xoxox
Life: It is what it is, and it goes on...
Wow
Hi there, I just looked at my last post and realized that its been almost a month since my last update.
And what a month it has been.
First of all, I moved to my new place, which I absolutely love. And I love it even more now since I have a washer and dryer and my living room furniture. I even hung some items on the wall in the dining room and the living room. These 2 posters I got from Hobby Lobby are really cool...I dont think I get them all the way, but I like that I dont quite get them yet and meanwhile they are still really cool looking. I also hung David's pic, which I get and is really cool looking :)
Lets see, in addition to moving, I got a little inundated with school. My second class ended up being relatively reading intensive at first, and it was alot to have an article prepared (and read to the point you could explain it to someone else) every day. We ended up not meeting on Fridays (except for the first day) and talking about our own research and what we liked to call "Personal Development." I really enjoyed the course and could not have imagined taking an alternative course in this part of the summer. My Quant final is at noon, and I am looking forward to turning that in. Not really taking it, but turning it in. The sooner I do that I can get the hell out of town.
Im going back to Mobile today to visit William. And Im super excited. I havent seen him in 2 weeks and I miss him terribly. I dont know what were going to do when school starts and we wont be so flexible. Wait, I dont want to think about that now, we'll deal with that when the time comes.
But yeah, back to my Mobile trip. I am taking some reading with me that I need to do (or at least familarize myself with) and I threw some books in the car for the downtime. Were going to see John Legend at the house of Blues in New Orleans on the 10th, and were really really excited about that too.
Speaking of being excited, I need to get measured for my bridesmaid dress (separate thought...keep up). Maybe I will get to do that while I am in Mobile. I know I have been talking about doing it for a while now, but this last month has totally flown by..with the move and school and the wedding...and school...and just life in general. It is what it is. I cant get really worked up about it...that wont solve anything!
Lets see, lets see. Naima is moving to Atlanta (she got the job) and Dionne wants to come this way for graduate school. How fabulous would that be? Both Dionne and Naima? Im so lucky! My godmother's wedding was nice, hectic, but nice. The bridal party was relatively large, i think 6 bridesmaids, 6 groomsmen, and there was a wedding planner and a matron of honor who believed she was the wedding planner. You can imagine my headache as the MC of the reception (yeah, I know right...i didnt know what to do, but I havent been to that many weddings to know...I dont think I want one of those) trying to take direction from the planner AND the matron of honor. Plus it was hot, and the bride was trying to please everyone. Just hectic. Glad I ddint have straight hair. I would have sweat it out. However, the upside to the weekend was that I got to spend some time with Dionne, and I got to hang out with mom. I love hanging out with mom. She'll be here at the end of the month...Labor Day weeeknd. Were going to cook-out and barbeque. And It looks like some of my friends will be here so they can all meet mom.
Speaking of friends, Im supposed to be going on spring break with my girls. I know right? Here I am, this will be year number 2 of a spring break adventure with my girls. In undergrad I usually just went home...so this should be interesting. Were looking at an actual trip, cruise or something and Cachet is spearheading the planning. Im excited.
So I think that may be it for awhile. Generally when I am absentee for long periods of time something is wrong. Well, Im without cable and internet at my new place right now, so thats why Ive been absentee. However, I have had so much work to do that I needed to not play on the internet or vege on my new couch. I think I could live without cable. I wont, but I could if I absolutely have to.
I digress.
Im running off now, I should be back sooner than later, and wish me luck on my final. Happy Wednesday!
xoxox
Hi there, I just looked at my last post and realized that its been almost a month since my last update.
And what a month it has been.
First of all, I moved to my new place, which I absolutely love. And I love it even more now since I have a washer and dryer and my living room furniture. I even hung some items on the wall in the dining room and the living room. These 2 posters I got from Hobby Lobby are really cool...I dont think I get them all the way, but I like that I dont quite get them yet and meanwhile they are still really cool looking. I also hung David's pic, which I get and is really cool looking :)
Lets see, in addition to moving, I got a little inundated with school. My second class ended up being relatively reading intensive at first, and it was alot to have an article prepared (and read to the point you could explain it to someone else) every day. We ended up not meeting on Fridays (except for the first day) and talking about our own research and what we liked to call "Personal Development." I really enjoyed the course and could not have imagined taking an alternative course in this part of the summer. My Quant final is at noon, and I am looking forward to turning that in. Not really taking it, but turning it in. The sooner I do that I can get the hell out of town.
Im going back to Mobile today to visit William. And Im super excited. I havent seen him in 2 weeks and I miss him terribly. I dont know what were going to do when school starts and we wont be so flexible. Wait, I dont want to think about that now, we'll deal with that when the time comes.
But yeah, back to my Mobile trip. I am taking some reading with me that I need to do (or at least familarize myself with) and I threw some books in the car for the downtime. Were going to see John Legend at the house of Blues in New Orleans on the 10th, and were really really excited about that too.
Speaking of being excited, I need to get measured for my bridesmaid dress (separate thought...keep up). Maybe I will get to do that while I am in Mobile. I know I have been talking about doing it for a while now, but this last month has totally flown by..with the move and school and the wedding...and school...and just life in general. It is what it is. I cant get really worked up about it...that wont solve anything!
Lets see, lets see. Naima is moving to Atlanta (she got the job) and Dionne wants to come this way for graduate school. How fabulous would that be? Both Dionne and Naima? Im so lucky! My godmother's wedding was nice, hectic, but nice. The bridal party was relatively large, i think 6 bridesmaids, 6 groomsmen, and there was a wedding planner and a matron of honor who believed she was the wedding planner. You can imagine my headache as the MC of the reception (yeah, I know right...i didnt know what to do, but I havent been to that many weddings to know...I dont think I want one of those) trying to take direction from the planner AND the matron of honor. Plus it was hot, and the bride was trying to please everyone. Just hectic. Glad I ddint have straight hair. I would have sweat it out. However, the upside to the weekend was that I got to spend some time with Dionne, and I got to hang out with mom. I love hanging out with mom. She'll be here at the end of the month...Labor Day weeeknd. Were going to cook-out and barbeque. And It looks like some of my friends will be here so they can all meet mom.
Speaking of friends, Im supposed to be going on spring break with my girls. I know right? Here I am, this will be year number 2 of a spring break adventure with my girls. In undergrad I usually just went home...so this should be interesting. Were looking at an actual trip, cruise or something and Cachet is spearheading the planning. Im excited.
So I think that may be it for awhile. Generally when I am absentee for long periods of time something is wrong. Well, Im without cable and internet at my new place right now, so thats why Ive been absentee. However, I have had so much work to do that I needed to not play on the internet or vege on my new couch. I think I could live without cable. I wont, but I could if I absolutely have to.
I digress.
Im running off now, I should be back sooner than later, and wish me luck on my final. Happy Wednesday!
xoxox
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